And to think!

I've been waiting for this time to post something in this blog. Well, I've been through a few thinking moments lately and I'm now officially announcing my plans for this 2nd semester 2008-2009:

*be active with the Southern Ambassadors
*join the 1st reunion of PC Officers
*go to kapatagan this december
*organize the trip to GenSan with the gang
*sleepover
*peer counselors active membership
*go to Davao on February with mikee

--that's all. Wish me luck!

Is this a break-up?

It just went away. I felt all alone as I'm trying to think of reasons why i couldn't reach him. Was his phone lost? stolen? Was his battery low? Why was he out of reach?! I started calling him since 10pm last night but I just couldn't reach him. I'm beginning to freak out. What if I'd never reach him again? DAMN! Why can't he see how much I need him right now? I wished i should just have dosed much on pills to make him worry for me. I wasn't turning cold! I was just letting him enjoy his friends' company. How I wish he'd care enough to leave me a comment on this.

I wish this isn't giving up. I've waited long enough to make this work. I'm not throwing it away just because they don't like him. Damn! Damn! Damn! I hope he realizes how much this means to me. I can't just give this up! Why can't he see that I need him more than anything else? Why would he try to end this?! He has to answer my call tonight if he doesn't want me dead. I'm so tired of this break-up stuff. I will grow up. He'll see!