And to think!

I've been waiting for this time to post something in this blog. Well, I've been through a few thinking moments lately and I'm now officially announcing my plans for this 2nd semester 2008-2009:

*be active with the Southern Ambassadors
*join the 1st reunion of PC Officers
*go to kapatagan this december
*organize the trip to GenSan with the gang
*sleepover
*peer counselors active membership
*go to Davao on February with mikee

--that's all. Wish me luck!

Is this a break-up?

It just went away. I felt all alone as I'm trying to think of reasons why i couldn't reach him. Was his phone lost? stolen? Was his battery low? Why was he out of reach?! I started calling him since 10pm last night but I just couldn't reach him. I'm beginning to freak out. What if I'd never reach him again? DAMN! Why can't he see how much I need him right now? I wished i should just have dosed much on pills to make him worry for me. I wasn't turning cold! I was just letting him enjoy his friends' company. How I wish he'd care enough to leave me a comment on this.

I wish this isn't giving up. I've waited long enough to make this work. I'm not throwing it away just because they don't like him. Damn! Damn! Damn! I hope he realizes how much this means to me. I can't just give this up! Why can't he see that I need him more than anything else? Why would he try to end this?! He has to answer my call tonight if he doesn't want me dead. I'm so tired of this break-up stuff. I will grow up. He'll see!

Pressure

This was a hard month I should say. I got crammed up with lesson plans, take over classes, teachers with favoritism, stupid bulldog and oink2 talking english speakers and a new relationship status. I show the world that I'm happy but I guess, It's just with the face.

I probably am thinking too much. Well, most of us in the class does. We have to endure tuesday and thursday mornings with a pig. I had to endure SA practices at night.I have to smile whenever I see people smile back. I'm tired. I just went through a seminar, an english class, a public speaking class and a heartbreak. Now I'm thinking what to do next. I wish I'dstop and tell them that I want to get this over with. That I know I really don't like what I'm doing. Maybe,I just want rest. I need it.

Love

LOVE

When she walks away from you mad

[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth

[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you

[ hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you

[ say i love you ]

When she's quiet

[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ]

When she ignores you

[ act cute so she'll notice you ]

if she dont call you

[ Its because she's waiting for you to call her ]

When she pulls away

[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst

[ tell her you love her and she still looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying

[hold her...ask her what's wrong]

When you see her walking

[ approach her..give a kiss on the cheek. ]

When she's scared

[assure her you're not goin to leave her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder

[ tilt your head too..and hold her hand ]

When she steals your favorite hat

[ let her keep it]

When she teases you

[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time

[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you

[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands

[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you

[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you

[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart

[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over

[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin

[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you:

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

Peer Counseling

Fortunately for me, I'd be in Phase II this weekend for Peer Counseling. I'm happy Id be able to take a break for being too busy but I'm sure I'm sleeping late tonight. There are a lot to be done for tomorrow that's why I have to let go of some things for a while.

Anyway, this weekend would serve as a refresher. No cellphones in this case...

I hope I'd get the better of this. I need a rest anyway.

Our first Anniversary

A few days now, we'd be celebrating one happy year together. It quite hurts that we can't see each other til 5 years after, but somehow, it may be worth the wait.

I've been with him for quite a time now & somehow, despite of my wrongs, he's still there. I'm thankful for him. I hope he is for me, too. It's a relationship worth the tears anyway.

My wish:

I hope we'd get better & stop doing foolish things to each other. I love him. That's why everything matters.

What I love to think right now

Well, perhaps, I could sleep early tonight. I only have the SA bugging me. I finished my report, put up with the caffeine problem, ate my meals and rested [peacefully].

I'd like to think that I don't have to worry about anything else right now. I almost forgot!

Keno, if you happen to read this, thanks for keepin me company.. get the bills from kuya.. he left it dw s bhauz.. bring me barbecue d nxt tym u cum around. haha!

I'd die for barbecue this time!!! I miss it! uhuhu! Wish I'd have it soon...
Much more I miss the person who treats me into this even if its late in the evening... Wish to see you again.

SONA..ta

Read it one of the bloggers here...

Maybe, she really wanted something for HER Majesty's country...Well, to the think that his highness the KING [of smuggling] has put us up in that ZTE blah.. blah...

We only have two years to wait, mah dir!

She's finally out of office...

As for now, we'd only have to bear with it.. Anyway, most countries have problems like ours so we don't need to fret.

ta.dah!

pressures

Its just a busy week. The exam's supposed to be done last week but since I'm getting negligent, I still have leftover stuff to do. And here I am, blogging. Wasting precious hours of editing away.

Of course, I love my job.That's why I'm here in the first place. I love it too much that I'm starting to think I could getaway with it by now. But, uh! Well... I need time to thing things over & shut down the photo shop program before I'd start to do real jobs. Or maybe, I'm just thinking too much.

That's why its called pressure. It won't stop til' it gets the better of you. You either have to face it or to let it go.It's never the same - and [yeah!] i have to deal with it every time.

So, this has to tell me to stop & start doing my thing before i get sucked up by the bulldog... Everyone here knows who he is. [I'd better not talk about him. He's stupid.]

Well, to end this,I'd just like to say thank you for reading my thoughts and "understanding" why I haven't been able to blog for so long.

I hope it suits u fine as it suits mine. You, take care. I'd take care of me too.

Left behind.

Some things really have to fly... And it never demands for questions why. I know its never meant to be this way... But if something can still be done, I want him to stay... Honestly.