Pressure

This was a hard month I should say. I got crammed up with lesson plans, take over classes, teachers with favoritism, stupid bulldog and oink2 talking english speakers and a new relationship status. I show the world that I'm happy but I guess, It's just with the face.

I probably am thinking too much. Well, most of us in the class does. We have to endure tuesday and thursday mornings with a pig. I had to endure SA practices at night.I have to smile whenever I see people smile back. I'm tired. I just went through a seminar, an english class, a public speaking class and a heartbreak. Now I'm thinking what to do next. I wish I'dstop and tell them that I want to get this over with. That I know I really don't like what I'm doing. Maybe,I just want rest. I need it.

Love

LOVE

When she walks away from you mad

[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth

[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you

[ hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you

[ say i love you ]

When she's quiet

[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ]

When she ignores you

[ act cute so she'll notice you ]

if she dont call you

[ Its because she's waiting for you to call her ]

When she pulls away

[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst

[ tell her you love her and she still looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying

[hold her...ask her what's wrong]

When you see her walking

[ approach her..give a kiss on the cheek. ]

When she's scared

[assure her you're not goin to leave her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder

[ tilt your head too..and hold her hand ]

When she steals your favorite hat

[ let her keep it]

When she teases you

[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time

[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you

[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands

[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you

[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you

[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart

[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over

[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin

[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you:

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

Peer Counseling

Fortunately for me, I'd be in Phase II this weekend for Peer Counseling. I'm happy Id be able to take a break for being too busy but I'm sure I'm sleeping late tonight. There are a lot to be done for tomorrow that's why I have to let go of some things for a while.

Anyway, this weekend would serve as a refresher. No cellphones in this case...

I hope I'd get the better of this. I need a rest anyway.

Our first Anniversary

A few days now, we'd be celebrating one happy year together. It quite hurts that we can't see each other til 5 years after, but somehow, it may be worth the wait.

I've been with him for quite a time now & somehow, despite of my wrongs, he's still there. I'm thankful for him. I hope he is for me, too. It's a relationship worth the tears anyway.

My wish:

I hope we'd get better & stop doing foolish things to each other. I love him. That's why everything matters.